Raspberry Sorbet

 

Today I had lunch with a man that I consider a dear friend. He and I were in the same cohort during our MBA program and I would not be exaggerating when I say that I would not have made it through the program without him. He and I are in a similar place in life. We have just finished our MBA and half expected the entire to world to change the next day upon graduation. Not so much…

 

We have both recently started our careers as “bloggers.” What a scary world to jump into, but I can honestly say that I feel fulfilled and optimistic for the journey ahead. We talked today at lunch how our random thoughts and stories may actually be helpful to others out there in the world, and I must say that is the end goal. If just one person can identify with my life and all its craziness, then I have done my job.

 

I had a minor breakthrough today at lunch. This breakthrough has been bubbling inside me since this weekend. Most of my career has been in the beauty industry, specifically a personal care store that is in just about every mall in America. I began working there my sophomore year of college and quit during my first semester of my MBA program. No, I didn’t work there the ENTIRE time in that span, but a good chunk of my life was wrapped up in lotion land. There were days that I adored my job. I set goals for myself and quickly moved into a managerial role. I thrived as a store manager and loved my job. I quickly saw myself moving into a district manager role and getting my MBA would only quicken the pace. Again, not so much…

 

This weekend, my husband and I were shopping in lotion land to purchase a hostess gift for one of our close friends. I only shop in obscure locations where I know that the management staff does not remember me. Yes, this may seem a bit self-righteous, but I cannot shop at most locations without knowing someone. I just want to be a regular customer and not asked about my personal life or where I am working or why I haven’t had kids yet or am I coming back…Not too much to ask is it? I am getting to the point, I promise.

 

Our conversation today made me realize that I am the one holding onto “Ashley the store manager.” I am the one that still sees me in that role opposed to the creative analytic thinker that my management skills in conjunction with my MBA have helped me to become. I need to bury my career in lotion land. Yes, it morphed me into the manager that I am today, but it no longer defines me. It didn’t help me in getting my MBA. I did that all by myself.

 

Life is moving on and I am thinking of myself as a leader in the past tense instead of living in the present and realizing how accomplished I have become. To be a woman in business is hard enough, but to be a talented woman in business with an MBA and a background in the beauty industry is not common. That is what I am, and from this day forward I will own who I am. I will not look to the past, but be in the moment and looking forward to my next goal.

 

Thanks for listening…

 

Ash

 

PS-To reference my shades of pink, I use paint samples. Raspberry Sorbet is Valspar color 1001-1B. Just in case you wanted to know!

 

Ballerina Pink

Ballerina pink is the most delicate shade of pink. It reminds me that even in this crazy world that we live in, there is still purity and innocence in the world. I am reminded that even if my life is not exactly how I planned, there is still hope out there.

I am at a crossroads in my life. I have recently finished my MBA but am not currently employed. I have been married for five years and have had the “kid itch” for some time now. I want to work, but I also want to be a mom. I want it all, but have to establish my priorities first. Can you relate to the “kid itch?” Most of your friends and relatives are having children and most of them have been married for a shorter time period than you. And you constantly get the question-“when are you guys having kids?” I just want to shout out to the world that I wish I had that answer. I would love to have a child, unfortunately my husband and I like to make plans and set goals and not rush into things. I have four nieces on my hubby’s side of the family and am thankful for each and every one of them. But yes, it hurts so much to see them and be hit with the reality that I do not have one of my own.

To answer your question, no my husband and I are not “trying” to have a baby. I hate that word, by the way. We are still preventing pregnancy because it just feels like the right decision for us at the moment. But yes, I want a baby. I want to be someone’s mother. I want to share that experience with my amazing husband who I adore more and more with each day that passes. We are just not in the best place at the moment to bring a child into this world. We have some ducks to align and other goals to accomplish first. But yes, I am afraid of being an older mother. I want to be young and hip and fun as a mom no matter what my kid’s age. I know that I will be just that and everything will work out, this is just what is on my heart and mind and the moment.

Can you relate?

Pink

Hello World… My name is Ashley and I love the color pink. It has been my favorite color for as long as I can remember. There was a time in my life when I wished everything around me was pink including my car, my hair, and my horse.

Anyway, this blog is written my a woman (even though I am not a fan of that word, and still feel like a girl) for women. We face many trials each and every day and I think each day can correlate to a different shade of pink, if you will. Yes, it may seem silly but I love the color pink as I said.

I cannot give you an exact format for this blog because I haven’t defined it yet. It may include rants, raves, recipes, and/or real life happenings. I hope you enjoy what you read and welcome any feedback.

Thanks for reading!

Ash